“I don’t need brand to be beautiful, I need Couture” So don’t mix me up with a shopaholic because I am not. I don’t shop a lot but I do have terrifying expensive taste which I couldn’t effort it myself. So what are we going to do to solve these horrible problems? Should I purchase a fake label? Or should I purchase none?

If you walk through Face book you will find a lot of Pages and Profiles that offer you the replica goodies. These goodies looked almost similar as the real one and on some page they even use the picture of the genuine brand to seduce your sensor of fashion. The quality of these fake goodies is so good that some seller call it semi original. Which is totally crap, as we all know that there is no such things as Semi Original, There is nothing between Original and Fake.

What is the reason why a lot of people like to buy these labels? Do we really like them, or we just want to be judge well and belong to a certain group? If you really like them you can not help your self to want them but I do believe that you will never satisfied with the fake one as it wouldn’t be the one that you consider as pretty. If judge will be the reason, you do realize that you want people to misjudge you right? Because you do want to be seen with genuine products while you are walking around with a fake one. But don’t forget that people wont judge you for your goodies but for your whole personality so they will now anyway if you carry the fake one as it will belong to the rest of you.

Maybe money is the main reason why people consider to buy a fake one any way. Maybe we just don’t think it is worthy to spend so much money to buy the genuine product so we just purchase a fake because it is cheaper. But does it? So I went through Internet to check out the prices of this so called “semi original” products. The most of them asked between 20 to 30 % of the original price. It means that you can purchase 5 goods in state on 1. It is sounds reasonable but do you realize that you just purchase 5 worthless goods with the same amount of money as 1 valuable?

To prove my theory right, why don’t you can search for the vintage products? All genuine brands will somehow keep the value and the fake goods will end up in trashcan. So there is no investment in buying fake products it is just an expensive habit.

In my case money is the obstacle to buy a genuine product so it means I cannot effort to buy 5 fake ones either. My only possibility is to buy 1 fake one but considering it is worthless, I rather buy brand less products that suite my personality as it will cost me much less and both are totally worthless anyway. “Better no Brand then Fake Brand”

So my conclusion is to avoid buying fake products, as it won’t do your appearances or your wallet any good. Save the world started by saving the Couture.

Mr P said that being alone doesn’t mean being lonely and Mr A who is agreed with him said that loneliness is being not listened even though you have screamed it out loud. I believe it can be true. So if I follow their statements I can conclude that loneliness is just the symptom and not the disease. What is the cause of this disease? Are peoples really suffering from it? Do they want to be cure? Or is just a simple common phenomenon in this community?

Yesterday when I was gathering with friends we were talking about the coming up Holiday season. I was totally surprise to know that almost everybody in the room hasn’t planned anything to celebrate Christmas or New Year. When I asked my question it seems like I brought the hell fire to the room as people told me that you couldn’t celebrate anything alone. In this case they don’t talk about friends but about life partner. So if you don’t have any partner you don’t have anything to celebrate? But are they right? Maybe it didn’t affect all single person in this world but somehow it does affect the most. Like the article I have read last week: “The most single in The Netherlands want to have a winter sleep during the holiday seasons and wake up on second of January to avoid being alone during the Holiday seasons”

As naïve as I am (No, I am lying I just want to heat up the conversation) I brought up this article to discuses it with them. Even though they know how to describe their own experience of loneliness none of them can describe the cause of it. But after listening to different kind of stories I can conclude that being lonely is cause by “Being in the wrong crowed, which include one person space”.

But why we end up in a wrong crowed? In the most of cases is because we want to belong to something. Life seemed so much easier if you just joint the majority but in a long term it will always cost you more then what you received. And sometimes it cost a lot of irreparable damages. Unfortunately it is not always up to us to choose the right crowed such as Family, Colleague or Classmate. This environment in case of Mr P and Mr A has played a big deal. They both were married for years without wanted it. They both are gay but afraid for being banished by their own crowed so they followed the rule and suffered for loneliness for years. But what is worthier? Being in the wrong crowed or being alone? The most will chose the crowed because it seemed save. But does it? I don’t think so, I believe to avoid this kind of unnecessary unfortunate phenomenon is to select the right crowed for your self and don’t decide for others.

He left a blank note
Gone for a while, Jus for a while
searching for the first sentence
A vocal and meaning

Reach the north sea shore
He, him, his
Hearing the capital F
He, him, his

Ribbon and dice
Gambling and loosing
Spinning, rolling and turning
He, him, his

Gone for a while, just for a while
Shout to the north sea
His, his, his
He found him, just him

22 years past by without having any meaning. Some were born and some has died and some has killed or even killed him self in between. We all turn old and all the happiness and sorrow seems silently disappear. But what will happen if the gathering recap the time?
in the beginning I was only a young guy or like what they said: “a teenager with a childish mind” who has entered somebody else’s life for what I was. But I guess it didn’t mean I could expect the crowd to understand me. Even though it was the exact words they used as premature adult they couldn’t avoid my power of being as they saw me as the one who wanted to be the centre of the attention. But I was the child wasn’t I? If that was true why couldn’t bunch of adults beat a child? Why were they became the victim of situation? Are they drowning in their own modesty or just lost in their insecurity or am I just too much?
It was really amazing to know what some people things about you. For me it is not a matter of ignoring nor absorbing but a matter of making a reasonable result of the judgment. So I started to make my own judgment about my self. I recap my life in the last 22 years and count how many people might hate me and how many will do the other but the result didn’t supported their argument either.
As we all know history makes a future and today is the future of yesterday. All the present fruits are the seed we have planted in the past. I do have lots of insecurity but one thing I am sure about is that “today” I am not the one who is bitter nor lonely and am not the one who has to erase my self for my mistake so I guess it still makes me the centre of all.
Still I do believe they are certain about the way they have seen it and I have to respect that, but do I have to defending myself to convince them differently? I don’t think so because I know we will always be the little enemy of a wrong crowd.

Michelle has made an unfortunate decision that has cost her freedom. But for me  it didn’t cut her prominent position in society she has held. She wrote on her ad about the unlimited power of human brains which has triggered me to write her a letter.
I have received her first answer last week. She reminded me In her letter how similar we are except that I missed in my self the guts she had to conquered her will. Even though life is not as simple as we wanted it to be she showed me the way to fix a lost road. It doesn’t matter where you are, you can always produced the unlimited possibility inside of you. And she also wrote me about the amazing strength of accepting. Can I ever be as strong as she is? Is my fear of fear stronger then my anxious of surviving?